I See the Forest
Back in March after I finally got Penny to stop calling me I got angry.
I was bugged and depressed. its no secret that I have been looking for someone for me for a while. Whether I said I was or not the base desire to have someone always remained. No matter how hard I tried though nothing ever happened. I met manipulative, vampiric women who cared very little for me and were very concerned about themselves. Of course I got discouraged.
So I was sitting at my system having a drink, playing a video game when a thought crept to my mind.
"Goddamn it. If they (the powers) can help me get a car and keep me from loosing my house, why cant I have a girlfriend?"
It is said knowledge and wisdom are painful. Neither is truly gained without giving some of yourself to receive it. the Epiphany that hit me almost knocked me to the floor. It was so damn simple. A giant redwood I was sitting on, looking for a forest. (yes, yes. I hear you. 'I told you, you couldnt see the forest for the trees')
I could have one. It was as simple as getting the car.
I lost my old Dell laptop. people freaked. I didnt. "there will be another" I said. BAM. Two weeks later Cammie sends me a brand new Toshiba. I needed a car for work. BAM. I get the PT Cruiser for $500 down that week. I need money cause I want a better life. IA gives me a raise to keep me from working two jobs. Its so damn simple. If the universe is so sympathetic to me and seems to be meeting my needs, why am I doubting it?
I need a girl, and Im going to get one. Its that damn simple. All I have to do is believe I will find one and I will.
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I was bugged and depressed. its no secret that I have been looking for someone for me for a while. Whether I said I was or not the base desire to have someone always remained. No matter how hard I tried though nothing ever happened. I met manipulative, vampiric women who cared very little for me and were very concerned about themselves. Of course I got discouraged.
So I was sitting at my system having a drink, playing a video game when a thought crept to my mind.
"Goddamn it. If they (the powers) can help me get a car and keep me from loosing my house, why cant I have a girlfriend?"
It is said knowledge and wisdom are painful. Neither is truly gained without giving some of yourself to receive it. the Epiphany that hit me almost knocked me to the floor. It was so damn simple. A giant redwood I was sitting on, looking for a forest. (yes, yes. I hear you. 'I told you, you couldnt see the forest for the trees')
I could have one. It was as simple as getting the car.
I lost my old Dell laptop. people freaked. I didnt. "there will be another" I said. BAM. Two weeks later Cammie sends me a brand new Toshiba. I needed a car for work. BAM. I get the PT Cruiser for $500 down that week. I need money cause I want a better life. IA gives me a raise to keep me from working two jobs. Its so damn simple. If the universe is so sympathetic to me and seems to be meeting my needs, why am I doubting it?
I need a girl, and Im going to get one. Its that damn simple. All I have to do is believe I will find one and I will.
