Demon Fighter
I used to be a ball of rage. One never ending storm of "Grrrrrr".
That changed recently. I met someone. Not like before, not like the others. there was no lying, no trickery, no using me for an emotional tampon. This is real, and I believe her.
She told me how she felt. What things meant to her. I didnt get the warning siren. I didnt go into auto defend. So I ressigned myself to, "well. you know this one is gonna hurt". And I waited and waited, but that hurt didnt come. Not one little bit. Then my own demons took over.
"you know she'll leave you. Shes going to meet someone so fuckin hot hes going to incinerate you with it." They still crop up at odd moments and beat on my door. Often they dont get in.. Mainly because she makes me feel like the man I want to be, when Im with her.
But sometimes, they find a new one. Being neurotic, My demons can find something to hit me with. Some of the new ones scare the hell out of me. But I will keep fighting them down. Theres no way Im giving her up without a fight.
