Neurotic Screams

This is long and in somecases boring, but its my life.
I had just started a new job that had amazing potential and appeared to be what I always wanted. Well actually it is except it has problems. Althought the pay is much better than where I was, the pay is slow.
A close friend gave me ideas and  leads to improve this. But, being the end of the year things are scarce. So, Im still waiting on something to pan out.
Back in November I moved in with a friend. The idea was the new job was going to help me get back on my feet and start that life I always wanted.
But like i said, pay has been slow.
Well now I have to move like, fast. Problem is the pay is still slow. I talked to my boss about it. My boss assures me he understands the ramifications of this. Such as if he fails me in this Im gone at lighhtspeed. So he has been helping somewhat.  Lets cross our fingers.

On the personal side I have met someone and she is great. Through a real intent just to hang out, we made a connection. We shared thoughts and laughs that were true and real. I was a bit nervous about things when I saw her again, but somehow we both knew. We both wanted there to be more. We tried to downplay it for a day or two but couldnt really let it go. We connected. We can talk. We can tell each other fears and hurts and its alright.
Neither of us is afraid of the risk. The alternative is worse.  We mesh on so many levels. Conversation, movies, music, food, sex, sense of humor.
Its a great thing. Lets hope I stay here for a while.