Neurotic Screams

Im still working on the new site. Its not as easy as I thought to be creative and different.  Its damn hard actually.
While I have an idea in my head its hard as hell to actually make that look good in an editor.  Also Im working on making a technical site that I will be updating with all kinds of neat stuff. Linux tweaks and how-to's. Windows fixes. Do-it-my-damn-self projects.  Meanwhile this site will still be my personal spot.
Later I will be posting some of the different templates for people to look at. Maybe someone can tell me whats better.

Things went sour. If you didnt notice, I got hacked.
Messed up my site bad.
I had to change everything. EVERYTHING! My logos are gone. My templates got jacked around. My catorgoies are gone. So I had to go back to the basic design.
Luckily this time I didnt loose all the posts too. Just a few of them.
I was able to import most of the data back to MySql.
So this is what the site will look like for a few weeks.

Enjoy, and thanks for stopping by

I used to be a ball of rage. One never ending storm of "Grrrrrr".

That changed recently. I met someone. Not like before, not like the others. there was no lying, no trickery, no using me for an emotional tampon. This is real, and I believe her.

She told me how she felt. What things meant to her. I didnt get the warning siren. I didnt go into auto defend.   So I ressigned myself to, "well. you know this one is gonna hurt". And I waited and waited, but that hurt didnt come. Not one little bit.  Then my own demons took over.

"you know she'll leave you. Shes going to meet someone so fuckin hot hes going to incinerate you with it." They still crop up at odd moments and beat on my door. Often they dont get in.. Mainly because she makes me feel like the man I want to be, when Im with her. 

 But sometimes, they find a new one. Being neurotic, My demons can find something to hit me with.  Some of the new ones scare the hell out of me. But I will keep fighting them down.  Theres no way Im giving her up without a fight.