Neurotic Screams

          The good news is my personal life seems to be picking up.  I met a great lady a month ago and things seem to be headed in the right direction.  We sat until 3am just smoking and talking.  We have tentative plans to go to movies and hang out more as we both have time.  She is a geek girl with a job in tech support. She runs Linux, loves Godzilla movies, Anime, and Chinese  Opera. Now all we need is more free time with each other.   My only real problem is I haven't dated before so, some stuff still vexes me.  I am going to continue to play it as it goes and just enjoy the ride.   I would say this proves out my last post.  Maybe I didnt really want it before or I couldnt see it when it was happening before. correction.  I didt accept when it was happening. Now I am.  And we all know, 'Way leads to Way'. 

           Speaking of which.  The job sucks.  More so than ever before.  Stupid, petty monkeys throwing shit at the other monkeys.  What they dont realize is, I aint no damn chimp.  Im a mandril thats been domesticated.  So I am really looking for another job.  something will come up.  I know it will but until then Im bringing plastic  bags, duct tape and beach to work.  >:)

        Back in March after I finally got Penny to stop calling me I got angry.
        I was bugged and depressed. its no secret that I have been looking for someone for me for a while. Whether I said I was or not the base desire to have someone always remained. No matter how hard I tried though nothing ever happened. I met manipulative, vampiric women who cared very little for me and were very concerned about themselves. Of course I got discouraged.
So I was sitting at my system having a drink, playing a video game when a thought crept to my mind.
"Goddamn it. If they (the powers) can help me get a car and keep me from loosing my house, why cant I have a girlfriend?"

           It is said knowledge and wisdom are painful. Neither is truly gained without giving some of yourself to receive it. the Epiphany that hit me almost knocked me to the floor. It was so damn simple. A giant redwood I was sitting on, looking for a forest. (yes, yes. I hear you. 'I told you, you couldnt see the forest for the trees')
I could have one. It was as simple as getting the car.
I lost my old Dell laptop. people freaked. I didnt. "there will be another" I said. BAM. Two weeks later Cammie sends me a brand new Toshiba. I needed a car for work. BAM. I get the PT Cruiser for $500 down that week. I need money cause I want a better life. IA gives me a raise to keep me from working two jobs. Its so damn simple. If the universe is so sympathetic to me and seems to be meeting my needs, why am I doubting it?
I need a girl, and Im going to get one. Its that damn simple. All I have to do is believe I will find one and I will.

Well, it happened again. I lost everything. When the site was moved to a different platform, the host did their best. Unfortunately my templates were corrupted completely. I tried to rebuild them but there is something wrong. Nothing worked. No matter how many times I tried. Killing all existing and starting the templates from scratch didn’t work. So I tried a reinstall. Bad idea.

The original posts are all gone. Kaput. No matter how many times I re-imported everything I got nothing. So…
We start again. Wipe it clean and start from a clean slate.

I am starting with the Quizzes. they are the most time consuming and, in my opinion the most interesting.

So stay tuned. There’s more coming.